To everyone, my thanks for your kind and sympathy comments here. It makes a difference.
For years the default station on my radio has been Radio 4. Today at 5 AM I switch to Radio 3. And there I think I will stay. Words have weighed the balance in the past. Now music takes over. This morning my ears resonate with carols. I try to comprehend all the joy in the world and all the utter misery and cruelty. Music helps. How it helps!
And a Happy Christmas